The Ramblings of a Lucid "Hero"

I don’t get it. You lose for winning?

You know, when I need someone…they’re never really around but when they call me I can be there in a heartbeat, depending.  What a shitty tumultuous week thus far, I must say.  I literally lost for winning.

I try and be nice to cheer a girl up and tell her she’ll be fine after she has a kid because she thinks her social life is going to tank and her boyfriend barely pays attention to her. She admittedly says she doesn’t see it working out and didn’t want that fighting around the baby.  I then get assailed by said boyfriend the next day to leave her alone and her telling me I was out of line when she was having a really good time…either she’s an evil genius to get him to pay attention and I become the patsy or she has an incredibly guilty conscience because she’s like bi polar.  I’m going with more of the former then the ladder.  

I try and avoid a conflict tonight only to be excommunicated and barred from ever visiting a friend’s house anymore because I was “lying” which I wasn’t…I simply didn’t want to assume anything and cause a problem because someone wanted me to invite a girl and have her be the only girl at a strip club with like five other guys but he doesn’t really know that being around us both tends to make her feel awkward or uncomfortable and I told her I wouldn’t do that to her and she thanked me happily and appreciated I was looking out for her…yet I’m the bad guy because I omitted this fact and I was accused of “lying” when I was just doing what was best for everyone I felt and because I wasn’t told that’s what was happening on that weekend and to “keep it open” I didn’t want to schedule it with her thinking that would conflict with said date to “keep open” only to find out she was supposed to go to that event.  Which was, supposedly, orchestrated from the get go by him and was “agreed” on that all that needed to happen was that “I” was supposed to be the one that invited her.  If that’s the case…I don’t understand why it was kept from me and that he was “helping me out” with her to get us to be around each other more because he knows I like her yet he tries to spend a lot of time with her AND he’s married?  I appreciate the intent but the execution was poor and, at the end of the day, she agreed to go with me but on another day just us…which to me sounds better anyway and it sounded like if he really wanted us to chill out he would be more for me and her going alone and wouldn’t be so upset she couldn’t make it to his party, right?

I need a break…from the valley…or something.  FML, dude…I don’t get it